Monthly Archives: March 2017


Serving Jesus

“So He touched her hand, and the fever left her. Then she got up and began to serve Him.” Matthew 8:15

After over 6 years, I still remember the day Jesus touched my hand like it was yesterday. I had spent over twenty years trapped in a cocaine addiction and had come to believe that I would always be this way. Through a series of bad decisions and disappointments I had found myself standing in front of Judge McKnight with a charge of illegal position of a prescription drug. As the judge handed down my sentence of one year probation with random drug screens, I smiled. Not for the reason the court room thought, but because I had hoped that maybe this would help me to get and stay clean.

The road I traveled from productive citizen to homeless addict was paved with multiple bad decisions and heart ache. Each time I tried to crawl out of my self imposed prison the devil would yank my strings telling me I was useless and unlovable, that there was nothing good in me, and society would show me that this was true. Night after night I would cry out to Jesus to save me, but my motives were all wrong. I wanted to be ‘saved’ for myself not for Jesus and others.

God created each and everyone of us with a purpose and that is to glorify Him, but if I’m so self absorbed how can I serve Him? He never intended for me to travel down the road I went, but He can use it. We, followers of Christ, are called to be the hands and feet of Jesus – not to judge or criticize others for their life style choices, but to love them right where they’re at. I had one very sweet woman in my life, who I call my sister, that did just that! She never criticized or condemned me; she just listened, cried for me I’m sure, and prayed. She wasn’t a church goer, or a bible thumper – she just loved Jesus and had His heart.

On that faithful day, I came back to the flea infested room I was staying in and fell to my knees begging God to save me. I begged Him to take me and change me, that I didn’t like what I had become, and that is when He touched me. Somewhere among the tears and pleading He forgave me and washed me clean, but He didn’t stop there. He gave me a heart to serve Him.

Sadly, too many ‘Christians’ today say a prayer for themselves – to go to heaven, without understanding what the cross is really about. The bible tells us that “my people are dying from a lack of understanding” and that “in all things get understanding”. Jesus didn’t die for you to go to heaven! He died so that we may be transformed into His image (our original created value before the fall of man). Going to heaven is a benefit we receive for serving Him. If you truly love Jesus, He tells us you will obey Him, my question to you is: Are you following Jesus? or yourself? Whom are you serving?

Jesus loving

Hooked on a Feeling

In 1974 the song Hooked on a Feeling was republished by Blue Swede and made number 1 in the chart hits. The song sings of how one person makes another one feel:

I can’t stop this feeling
Deep inside of me
Girl, you just don’t realize
What you do to me

When you hold me
In your arms so tight
You let me know
Everything’s all right

I’m hooked on a feeling
I’m high on believing
That you’re in love with me

I bring this up because this is how most ‘Christians’ are with God. They believe they have to ‘feel’ God to know that He’s real or that He’s present, and worst yet, that He wants them to do something. As most of you are aware, I support a girl from my church who would otherwise be homeless. She has no income and is 100% dependent on God and myself for everything she needs. She suffers from Gerds which is acid reflux with an erosion of the esophagitis. One of the symptoms is a persistent cough. When I say ‘persistent’ I mean non stop! The only thing that stops her coughing is a cough syrup that has codeine in it. This medication cost $93.00 a month! There is no patient assistance program for it and charitable pharmacies do not carry it because of the codeine, and to say this is more than my budget can handle would be an understatement! Because of this, we (Paula and I) solicit donations from our friends on facebook to help out (If you would like to donate follow this link . So far, God has been faithful and has provided. We give Him all the praise and glory!

But as I sat with another girl from church drinking coffee, a woman I consider to be a close friend, she begins to tell me that she didn’t ‘feel’ lead to help out. That God/Holy Spirit didn’t give her a sign or a ‘feeling’, so that is why she didn’t respond or commit. This absolutely blew me away!!!! We’re not talking about someone who just came to Christ or a ‘baby christian’, this is a leader in the church! Someone I’ve sat with over a cup of coffee, in her kitchen, discussing Jesus and the bible with our thoughts and beliefs running parallel! Honestly, I didn’t know how to respond. Finally I tried explaining that we are not always going to get a warm and fuzzy feeling about things that God has already told us in His Word to do. We just have to know (believe, which is the definition of faith) that God said it and if He said it then we are to do it. This is called obedience! And if we obey, then we will be rewarded.

I never got a warm and fuzzy feeling when I took Paula in. I just knew that this is what God wanted, so I obeyed. It’s been almost a year and I can not count the blessings God has bestowed upon me! But He told me that I was not to carry this alone, that others were to help out so that He could bless them as well. Does this mean we run ahead and do things without consulting God first? Absolutely not! We take all things to Him in prayer asking for guidance and His will but you will find 9 times out of 10 that if it’s in the bible (His Word), and silence is all you get, it’s because He’s waiting to see if you’re going to trust and obey Him. This doesn’t mean you go into debt or hock your wedding ring to give to someone, but if you are able (this may mean giving up a cup of coffee at Starbucks or something equally as frivolous) then this is what God wants you to do.

Consider what Jesus said in Matthew 25:31-46

31 When the Son of Man comes in His glory (His majesty and splendor), and all the holy angels with Him, then He will sit on the throne of His glory.
32 All nations will be gathered before Him, and He will separate them [the people] from one another as a shepherd separates his sheep from the goats;
33 And He will cause the sheep to stand at His right hand, but the goats at His left.
34 Then the King will say to those at His right hand, Come, you blessed of My Father [you favored of God and appointed to eternal salvation], inherit (receive as your own) the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world.
35 For I was hungry and you gave Me food, I was thirsty and you gave Me something to drink, I was a stranger and you brought Me together with yourselves and welcomed and entertained and lodged Me,
36 I was naked and you clothed Me, I was sick and you visited Me with help and ministering care, I was in prison and you came to see Me.
37 Then the just and upright will answer Him, Lord, when did we see You hungry and gave You food, or thirsty and gave You something to drink?
38 And when did we see You a stranger and welcomed and entertained You, or naked and clothed You?
39 And when did we see You sick or in prison and came to visit You?
40 And the King will reply to them, Truly I tell you, in so far as you did it for one of the least [in the estimation of men] of these My brethren, you did it for Me.
41 Then He will say to those at His left hand, Be gone from Me, you cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels!
42 For I was hungry and you gave Me no food, I was thirsty and you gave Me nothing to drink,
43 I was a stranger and you did not welcome Me and entertain Me, I was naked and you did not clothe Me, I was sick and in prison and you did not visit Me with help and ministering care.
44 Then they also [in their turn] will answer, Lord, when did we see You hungry or thirsty or a stranger or naked or sick or in prison, and did not minister to You?
45 And He will reply to them, Solemnly I declare to you, in so far as you failed to do it for the least [in the estimation of men] of these, you failed to do it for Me.
46 Then they will go away into eternal punishment, but those who are just and upright and in right standing with God into eternal life.